"You up?" is a text that I get every now and then from "that ex." You know the ex that you can't ever seem to get over, the one who still has a piece of your heart, the ex that looks so good that you just can't stay away? However, he's the one that also broke your heart, the one who made you cry, the one that you keep giving second and third chances to but just plays you every time. Well yea, "that ex" texted me at 1:30am Saturday night. Ordinarily when he randomly texts me, I would shamefully blush, write, erase, rewrite a message, erase it and then just text back "yes." He would come over and we would try to make it work again, only for it to never work again. But this last time was different...
About 4 months ago after the last exchange of words that we had, I had a conversation with God before bed. I asked him to take away my desire for him. I was tired of being disappointed and emotionally attached to this man. I wanted to break free. I finally knew that I deserved better and wanted more for myself even if that meant being alone. When I woke up the very next day, I felt different. I didn't feel emotionally attached to him anymore. So this past Saturday night when I got that "You up?" text from him, I had the willpower to tell him that I didn't want to see him. I actually shocked myself! Haha!
I didn't even think twice about it before I sent it. I thought to myself "You have grown up girl!" I kindly sent that text and went back to bed. I woke the next morning feeling like I saved the world. I might not have really saved the world but I saved myself. I saved myself from going backwards to more disappointment, more trust issues and more frustration.
Often times in life, we sustain toxic relationships and just can't seem to break away. We can't imagine what life would be without them because we become so emotionally attached. I'm here to tell you that you deserve better and will have better. Whether it's a relationship with a significant other, friend or even sometimes a family member, you hold the power and control to let go. Sometimes we must break free of those toxic relationships in order to see and receive what we truly deserve. Don't hold yourself back or weigh yourself down in life. Always keep going! Remember that!
Have you broken free of a toxic relationship? Tell me how it made you feel in the comments below!